I've spent a lot of time in the last couple of years looking for the beauty in the world, in part I suppose because it seems much of the world is just so ridiculously fucked up. You find a lot of peace when you realize that there is much good to counter the bad.
With that knowledge, I've come to realize that the single hardest thing in life, in the general sense, is to find the strength to overcome when bad things happen. When it's something that happens to you or affects you personally, it's much, much harder.
I feel like I'm having more than my share of bad things lately. I'm trying not to feel like a victim, or question my worth and place in things, but it's so difficult. After all, when you're the only common thread in a series of events that aren't good, it's natural to draw the conclusion that you've got a problem. Indeed, it's easier to see why some people find it so difficult to persist and march on.
I'm sure that this feeling will pass eventually, but man do I need something positive to happen, sooner than later. I guess I need to be the one to make that happen, because I don't feel like many people have my back in that regard.